please rejoice with me & pray for me~!!

this is a picture of how i'm feeling ..going through the spiritual wilderness & drought, longing for the water & clear skies ahead . . .
i'm aware of an ever-growing gap between all i'm reading & have read in God's Word & my actual life lived out, between the good intentions i have, the beautiful songs i sing & my actual life lived out ... the contradictions are just too great to ignore anymore and i gotta say it's killing me :(

:D rejoice with me~! :D
:D Psalms 42:5 is true! "Why are you crushed down, O my soul? and why are you troubled in me? put your hope in God; for I will again give him praise who is my help and my God."
:D times of refreshing are ahead~! see http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sy9CGymYvuA
[lyrics below]
*PRAY FOR ME*
* strength to persevere through the wilderness . . .
* grace to trust Him when I can't see what He's doing, when i can't feel Him or hear Him so clearly.
* bridge the gap between all i'm reading & have read in God's Word, the godly intentions i have, the beautiful songs i sing & my actual life lived out ...
thanks~!!
Carried To The Table - Leeland see http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sy9CGymYvuA

Wounded and forsaken
I was shattered by the fall
Broken and forgotten
Feeling lost and all alone
Summoned by the King
Into the Master’s courts
Lifted by the Savior
And cradled in His arms

I was carried to the table
Seated where I don’t belong
Carried to the table
Swept away by His love
And I don’t see my brokenness anymore
When I’m seated at the table of the Lord
I’m carried to the table
The table of the Lord

Fighting thoughts of fear
And wondering why He called my name
Am I good enough to share this cup
This world has left me lame
Even in my weakness
The Savior called my name
In His Holy presence
I’m healed and unashamed

You carried me, my God
You carried me