i was having [what i thought to be] a nowhere day in so far as being a missionary goes - that is, up to that moment i've had zero of what i would call "significant interactions" with any lost soul..
am i just imposing unreasonable expectations on myself, then indulging in beating myself up everytime i fail to meet them?
*sigh*
it could well be. :(
after our very final English Corner for the year (we watched 'The Nativity Story'
see www.newline.com/properties/nativitystorythe.html) i was hoping people would have Questions & maybe join us for a cheap dinner afterwards to have some significant interactions that might impact eternity.
but everyone just went their separate ways, so it was just me & brother Hugh for dinner. always good to spend time with a brother, maybe it's just my screwed up way of thinking that it's better to be with the lost ... while there's still time!
* pray what they saw in the movie would lead them to be found by Father who seeks & saves the lost!
after walking Hugh to his train station, i was wondering what should i do. (1) go home and get an early night, or
(2) go with Him to seek & save the lost?
i figured since i was out & there's plenty of time to rest in heaven [eternity!!] i may as well go for (2). i've already wasted enough of my life on the empty & the fleeting!!
i knew some of the English corner bunch would be at Southbank to watch the fireworks so i tried to miss call some of them to see if they'd be there [don't have free calls anymore - gave that phone away] .. after ~30mins, nobody called back so i walked through Southbank to see if i'd find anyone.
am i just imposing unreasonable expectations on myself, then indulging in beating myself up everytime i fail to meet them?
*sigh*
it could well be. :(
after our very final English Corner for the year (we watched 'The Nativity Story'
see www.newline.com/properties/nativitystorythe.html) i was hoping people would have Questions & maybe join us for a cheap dinner afterwards to have some significant interactions that might impact eternity.
but everyone just went their separate ways, so it was just me & brother Hugh for dinner. always good to spend time with a brother, maybe it's just my screwed up way of thinking that it's better to be with the lost ... while there's still time!
* pray what they saw in the movie would lead them to be found by Father who seeks & saves the lost!
after walking Hugh to his train station, i was wondering what should i do. (1) go home and get an early night, or(2) go with Him to seek & save the lost?
i figured since i was out & there's plenty of time to rest in heaven [eternity!!] i may as well go for (2). i've already wasted enough of my life on the empty & the fleeting!!
i knew some of the English corner bunch would be at Southbank to watch the fireworks so i tried to miss call some of them to see if they'd be there [don't have free calls anymore - gave that phone away] .. after ~30mins, nobody called back so i walked through Southbank to see if i'd find anyone.
. . . nobody.
feeling a little tired anyway, i thought, "i might as well go home".
wouldn't you know it? just as i got on the bus home, one of the guys i'd miss called called me back!
so i pressed the bell to get off at the next stop, forgetting that the bus i was on didn't stop until a few stops away from my home. :
to go back to Southbank would be a hassle, extra trips & extra time.
oh well, souls are worth it!!
.. right?!
plus i had to use up my ten trip saver tickets anyway! [as of Jan 1 they'll be obsolete :]
found out later that if i'd chosen to be selfish & just gone home, i would've missed out on not 1, not 2, not 3 but 4 divine Appointments!
~SO~ much better to give up my will to follow His =D
plus i had to use up my ten trip saver tickets anyway! [as of Jan 1 they'll be obsolete :]
found out later that if i'd chosen to be selfish & just gone home, i would've missed out on not 1, not 2, not 3 but 4 divine Appointments!
~SO~ much better to give up my will to follow His =D
- Divine Appointment #1: Trevor
- was walking back to Southbank & came alongside Trevor & his daughter, Ayisha. smiled & wished them a merry Christmas & a happy new year, he returned the warmth :) i was about to walk on ahead when i felt prompted to slow down & talk to him.
It feels like its been awhile since i last practiced unshy approaches to "strangers", having spent a decent time with Father & letting Him deal with me through that free downloadable book i posted about below [keep scrolling down -- don't miss it!
anyway we got talking, Trevor's story was certainly a living example of AMAZING GRACE!
anyway we got talking, Trevor's story was certainly a living example of AMAZING GRACE!
.. to think of all the wonderful stories imiss out on hearing & being a part of all because i'm "shy" :P
WHY BE SHY WHEN WE ARE SO GREATLY LOVED?!
anyway found out someone in his family is facing birth complications (?) we prayed together before parting ways -- pray Trevor & his family be drawn deeper into Fathers' love & trust Father through the darkest of times!
Divine Appointment #2 Yoshi
after an abysmal "christmas fireworks" show, [ie there was plenty of everything else BUT Jesus -- how one would put Jesus into a "christmas fireworks" show anyhow is beyond me, but anyhow . . . i guess not much has changed in 2008 years, i mean, the only people back then who understood what was really going on was a young virgin girl & her husband-to-be, along with a bunch of shepherds & some wise men ... the majority had no idea nor seemed to care much that God had entered the world!
met with a few of the English corner bunch after the fireworks, they went to watch a free movie, thought i'd tag along & just chat with them as they weren't really watching the movie anyway ... [it was outdoors, "under the stars"]
no "significant interactions" were happening, i remembered i had to call Yoshi, he was nearby, so we met. he's really been going through alot!
i was glad to be a friend & just listen as he "offloaded" on me.
pray Yoshi be drawn deeper into Fathers' love, give up living his own way to trust Father who loves him much more than he's ever known!
- Divine Appointment #3: Kha
sent Yoshi to the bus stop, after he left i sat down & looked next to me - asked him which bus he was waiting for & it was the same as mine :) we got talking, lots of encouraging him with his English (which he thought was pretty poor but i thought was OK)
then my bus stop came .. :
- Divine Appointment #4: Martin
i was walking home, Martin was outside a caravan park .. he'd locked his keys inside hs car boot!
.. to be continued ..
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