"necessary wake up call!"
+ "r u frgrant or stenchly?"
to talk to strangers out & about .. on buses etc .. the question of the day was "are you ready for Jesus' return?" [which i'd easily get to if people asked how i was & i'd tell them about the wake up call i received that morning!]
.. the 1st guy i talked to, talked as if he's ready but i wasn't so sure .. left him with a 'good person test' gospel tract anyway!
then i talked to a bus driver [probably not the wisest thing to do, but if Jesus is really returning anytime, there are surely bigger priorities than hiding behind my "wise" sounding excuses not to be redeeming the time in these evil days!!]
he also talked as if he's ready for Jesus' return .. but i wasn't so sure .. so left him with a gospel tract anyway!after that "negative" experience, i gave in to fear :(
and then ..
the next busdriver i talked to went yuck :(~ as soon as i mentioned "Jesus" & snapped "sit down!!"
.. and so sheepishly, i did :$
the short trip to the next stop which i was to get off at felt much longer than it ever has
.. i couldn't help but pray for her soul!!
i thanked her before i got off & told her how i appreciated busdrivers -- no response from her except "don't preach that Jesus stuff to me!"
... wowsers .. somehow just mentioning the Name of Jesus is called preaching?! :P
how anti-Jesus some people can be at just the very mention of His Name!
yet, the very same Jesus she despises & wants to hear nothing of longs for her lost soul to turn away from satan, her sinful self & come back home to Father's house of love!
.. it just struck me this morning in my reading of Matthew 26 how Jesus called his betrayer, Judas "friend", at the last supper and even in the garden as he was betraying The Prince of Glory!!
.. so i think we can pray with confidence that Father wants even those quite openly hostile against Him to come to repentance & faith, that they might LIVE & not die!!
but
[i shouldn't even think of it as "negative"!! to have shared a tiny ittle bit of our Saviour's suffering & experience a little of what He must've felt to the most awful degree, thank God i was found worthy of being identified with The Name Above All Names!! :D 8D =D XD]
[ARRHGHGH!! SILLY STOOPID SHTOOPID FEAR!!! HATE IT!! >.<]
.. yuck .. it felt sooo awesome to be able to speak of His Name & share something of Him after being sooo very slack for sooo long, but how disgustingly easy it is to dive into the ugly depths of indifference again :"(
O! for greater passion for Him that doesn't ever grow dim!! :"(
If Jesus came yesterday, could He say to me, "Well done good and faithful servant. Enter into your rest!"??
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