reflections from another weekend of inner healing...

 Dear princes & princesses, sons & daughters of noble identity & royal destiny!!

just thought I’d share this reflection after the 1st weekend of Elijah House level C course:

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ow! yet again, I’ve discovered the wounds in my spirit, soul & body go far deeper and have many layers more than I ever could have fathomed!

It would be easy to go into ‘withdraw’ / ‘isolate’ mode & feel too dirty to have to face & embrace life in all its’ fullness.

do I dare believe that the big world out there can cope with one as sinful, wounded, broken and messed up as I?

Surely the thought is ludicrous, as if my mess were so overwhelmingly bad that to face & embrace life would equal the destruction of lives to no end ..

Surely I have lost focus of The Healer, who specialises, in shaping all my ugly sinfulness to make me a shining, radiant trophy of His grace!

The Healer who wraps His loving arms around me in all my woundedness, and makes me a wondrous work of Divine art!

The Healer who delights in taking me in all my shame-filled brokenness

and moulds me into a Divine workmanship of a restored son!

The Healer who marvellously takes me & all my mess and moulds me into a magnificent of masterpiece of redemptive art !

.. but do I dare give myself to Him?

- all of myself,  all of my sinfulness, all of my woundedness, all of my brokenness and all of my messes?

To even fear such a prospect shows how familiar, comfortable and falsely “secure” I’ve become with such miserable companions on life’s journey!  

Yet how could I turn away from The Saviour who offers me the gift of life in all its’ fullness, who gives me beauty for my ashes, who gives me forgiveness to wear as a crown, who offers to lift off every burden of mine?!

Yes! My Saviour, Jesus, a thousand times YES!!! Let every unbelieving part of my heart be filled with the light of Your love, and keep my hand in yours as we walk this journey to increasing freedom and healing to bring Your freeing, healing good news to every nation, tongue and tribe!

 … I give myself to The Potters’ hands!

if you'd recognise your own need for inner healing & SO MUCH MORE, I've found this
course SUPER HELPFUL!! think of it as BASIC DISCIPLESHIP 101!
see http://www.elijahhouse.org [international page]

http://elijahhouse.com.au/courses [Australia page]

***UPDATE*** pray for Yoshi & Claire [JAP & TW]

down with flu .. wont meet Yoshi & Claire as planned :"( pls pray i recover in time for the Elijah House level C  inner healing course this Fri-Sat!! thank you SOOO MUCH!!

:D rejoice with me! :D

:D raising up ministries like Elijah House that teach such fundamental keys to living & being God's children in a broken world that doesn't get taught in the average 'church' setting! WHY?! ... to our loss =(

:D always providing ways & means for me to grow & get to things like this!!
*PRAY*

* we’d embrace & enter into all God has for us, dealing with hard issues in our lives in need of deep healing that are easier to leave ignored!

* Quality rest before, during & after the course so we'd be fully alert & receptive to all He has to show & tell us!

* work powerfully by His Spirit, in our bodies, souls & spirits, to bring about tremendous fruit in transformed lives that bring great glory to Him! 

how may i pray 4 u? 

i'm mtg Yoshi & Claire  2day, pls pray 4 me 2 partner with Him in what HES doing in their lives! thanks so much! 

rejoice with me & pray for me!

a picture of how the God who saved us feels about us!

“His face shines with pleasure. He is not angry with us. He is not a little bit upset with us. We are not on our way to the dog house. He is not looking for an opportunity to make us go to the dog house. The sight of us, the thought of us, puts a smile on His face”!!!

 

.. For anyone who wants to read a little reflection of the most recent major turning point in my journey with Jesus:

http://lifesshortprayhard.blogspot.com/2012/07/update-praise-god-pray-for-ellel.html

:D rejoice with me! :D

:D He is a blessing God!

:D He keeps me!

:D He smiles on me... is delighted in me ..

:D He is such an incredibly gracious God!!

:D He looks at me, sees me, knows me, is interested in me & I have His full attention!

:D He gives me ‘shalom’ = the very best for me!!

:D in the midst of all my hurt, all my wounds, He is attentive to the bigger picture I can’t see .. and He’s creating an absolute masterpiece!!

:D blessing me with incredibly awesome times of being ministered to in prayer!

*PRAY*

* I’d focus not on getting fully healed / sorting out all my junk but just focus on following Jesus, serving Him & leaving the perfecting work to Him!

* Jesus keep transforming the dirty water of my life into the finest wine to be served to others!

* I’d follow ONLY HIS leading & move in HIS timing!!!

* in all my serving, the focus would always be on showing and telling the Gospel!

* keep me from being overly religious/spiritual!!

* help me never to withhold approval from those You’ve already approved!!

* I’d sense where He’s going & go there, and not persuade Him to go where I’m going!!

* help me obey Him, even if I don’t know what’s happening at the time, trusting that explanations can come later!

* help to trust His loving goodness & care when I come to the situation, not forecasting imagined future situations that make me fearful!

owing everything to God’s grace, Able :)

~thank you~!

Please tell me how I can best support you before His throne of Grace too OK!

***UPDATE*** pray for Ellel ministries!!

:D my time last last Friday-Sun @ Ellels' short course on 'discovering the real me' was yet another HUGE spiritual turning point!

last year at their course on 'restoring the broken spirit' He revealed the lie I'd taken into my identity that i am disabled ... and replaced the lie with the truth that He is The God who is ABLE to save
[see Daniel 3:17 -where my dad chose my name!] and since He lives in me, I AM ABLE!

so far from being disabled, He told me I'm actually enabled to be His beloved son & lover in His world!

... this time He exposed more layers of wounding - the lies I'd taken into my identity - 

- i am unworthy
- i'm unlovable
- i'm unknowable

- i am rejectable [worth rejecting by others, since i'd rejected myself]

- i am unaffirmable [what's in me worth affirming?]

- i am unlistenable [I spend most of my time interacting with others listening to them, without as much interest shown in me]

- i am never good enough / cannot ever do things right

- i am fat

- i am ugly 

- i am unattractive

- i am stupid

- i am clumsy 

- i am an accident waiting to happen

- i am a failure
.. He showed me the masks i hide behind to self-protect / avoid pain / get accepted / feel valuable 

[i.e. apathy / being spiritual / disconnected / withdrawing / busy in 'ministry']

BUT ... ! ! !

during the night of prayer ministry Papa spoke to my spirit in that vulnerable & safe space, without needing to hide behind all those self-protective masks the real me:

+ I am worthy, valuable, a treasure!! [uke 12:24, NLT]

+ I am accepted and acceptable! [Ephesians 1:6, KJV]

+ I am affirmed as a beloved son of Papa, well-pleasing to Him! [Matthew 3:17]

+ I am good enough! [1 Corinthians 5:21]

+ I am a raging success!

+ I am  awesome!

+ I am fearfully and wonderfully made, gloriously in The image of God! [Psalm 139:13-14]

+ I am loved and lovable!  [Isaiah 43:4]

+ I am beautiful, adorable!

+ I am stable! [Psalm 62:2,6,7]

+  I am knowable!

+ I am a masterpiece in the making! [Philippians 1:6]

... so the real Able continues to be revealed :D

.. i truly treasure your prayers that i learn to walk in my true identity, after a lifetime of living the lies of my false identity, i have a lot of unlearning to do!

i would love you to please, please let me know if you see me going back to my old ways / masks i once hid behind, and remind me of the truth of who God has made me to be 

.. i absolutely cannot do this alone!

~thank you~!

Please tell me how I can best support you before His throne of Grace too OK!

pray for GEN12 MISSIONS CONFERENCE [14/7]

please pray for Chris & I as we represent Gospel for Asia at a local missions event tomorrow [14/7] 

- may eternal fruit be born from our labour amongst those who still wait to hear The Name of Jesus & His saving work for them! 

here's the free book we'll be giving away if you haven't read it already - it revolutionised my life!! http://www.gfa.org/freebook/

***UPDATE*** praise God & pray for Ellel ministries!!

... :D my time last Friday-Sun @ Ellels' short course 'discovering the real me' was yet another HUGE spiritual turning point!

last year at their course on 'restoring the broken spirit' He revealed the lie I'd taken into my identity that i am disabled ... and replaced the lie with the truth that 

He is The God who is ABLE to save [Daniel 3:17 -where my dad chose my name!] and since He lives in me, I AM ABLE!

so far from being disabled, He told me I'm acually enabled to be His beloved son & lover in His world!

... this time He exposed more layers of wounding - the lies i'd taken into my identity - 

- i am unworthy
- i'm unlovable
- i'm unknowable

- i am rejectable [worth rejecting by others, since i'd rejected myself]

- i am unaffirmable [what's in me worth affirming?]

- i am unlistenable [I spend most of my time interacting with others listening to them, without as much interest shown in me]

- i am never good enough / cannot ever do things right

- i am fat

- i am ugly 

- i am unattractive

- i am stupid

- i am clumsy 

- i am an accident waiting to happen

- i am a failure

.. He showed me the masks i hide behind to self-protect / avoid pain / get accepted / feel valuable 

[i.e. apathy / being spiritual / disconnected / withdrawing / busy in 'ministry']

BUT ... ! ! !

during the night of prayer ministry Papa spoke to my spirit in that vulnerable & safe space without needing to hide behind all those self-protective masks  the real me:

+ I am worthy, valuable, a treasure!!

+ I am accepted and acceptable!

+ I am affirmed as a beloved son of Papa, well-pleasing to Him!

+ I am  good enough!

+ I am a raging success!

+ I am  awesome!

+ I am fearfully and wonderfully made, gloriously in The image of God!

+ I am loved and lovable!

+ I am beautiful, adorable!

+ I am stable!
+  I am knowable!

+ I am a masterpiece in the making!

... so the real Able continues to be revealed :D

.. i truly treasure your prayers that i learn to walk in my true identity, after a lifetime of living the lies of my false identity, i have a lot of unlearning to do!

i would love you to please, please let me know if you see me going back to my old ways / masks i once hid behind, and remind me of the truth of who God has made me to be 

.. i absolutely cannot do this alone!

~thank you~!

What a joy it is to be journeying with Abba Yahweh, Jesus The Son by His Holy Spirit!! XD 8D =D

Please tell me how I can best support you before His throne of Grace too!